Step 1: Resetting the mind.

For over the past year I've been living underneath someone's shadow. It's been 3 years since my ultimate life change, throughout those years I've been dipping from sea to sea, seeing what each had to offer. I became strong-headed and matured drastically. Time to time (like today) I stop to analyze where in time I am going. Questioning myself if I am living in the present, but the past continually follows like the stray cat down a distorted alley. I may have said I'm strong-headed but I am human and I constantly go into the autopilot mode of conforming. Thus my year of living in someone's shadow. The fact that I matured drastically than others has not been a good point in my life. I concluded that the girl 3 years ago you knew no longer exists, she cannot have a casual talk amongst those her age, nor carry an interesting topic without boring those around. At times it becomes intimidating and awkward. The complete semi-stuttering and lack of connection with todays "youth", makes me feel that my soul has been wondering around. Lately, the repetitive image of 3 years ago comes about. I was 14, it was my birthday and staring out into the ocean I looked at how everything landed in its place. My frontal view was an overcast ocean, my mind was shut, nothing came to thought. Behind me we're those of my past a father happily cooking and a mother casually talking, friends enjoying one another and a family whole. Even though I said I've matured, I still think I'm in that 14 year old body. Still clueless of a few adult factors and life exchanges. So to say... I've been living in a "bubble" and my escape to reach what I concluded was reality, was nothing more than someone's shadow. I gave it some thought and realized that there's a countdown being in place. I am 17 in a half, I have no money, nor a car, I need a job and this will be the last year you will see me on campus.
Step 1: Resetting the mind.
• Write down your final thoughts.
• Make a list of goals.
• Grab a tune and find a relaxing place. (Ideally Helios and a dark secluded room with Nag Champa.)
• Exclude yourself from reality

... More steps will be provided on later posts.

Hail McQueen.

It's still a shock to me that Lee Alexander McQueen (real name) has passed away this morning... just yesterday I was talking about his designs in my Intermediate Art class, while complementing my friends coat and suddenly this happens. :'(
What makes it even more sad is that his mum recently passed away, Feb. 2nd. He tweeted,"RIP mumxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx," and a minute later "but life must go on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" .

Life will definitely go on and both the McQueen's will live on in peace.
Rest In Peace oh mighty McQueen's!

You were an inspiring impact on my life and will be truly missed.
xx.

Photo: A/W 09/10 collection at Paris Fashion Week

Insomnia.

It's almost 4:00 in the morning. My fingers have froze due to the cold air and I have 4 dresses to sew/add accessories onto.
Daul has been on my mind lately. I kept browsing through many photographs of her and I stumbled upon this one. Made me chuckle a bit and smiled. I imagine her saying, "Blonde okay guys?".

Reuse your trash!

Finally I took some time to use some of my "trash" as mum would say and made something useful. Sadly my long mirror broke due to my dogs "ruff" play. *They're poodles, yet they're mean when they play. Anyways, I collected the mirror. Big broken bits to small bits... the whole thing and I decided to make a christmas gift.
NOTE: Christmas past and I'm late on the gift... REALLY late ;p



Btw: I decided to do this late at night, I couldn't sleep so I finished around 3:10 AM takes 20-30 mins depending. I guess some would say it was "Lady Gaga inspired", but really I chose glasses cause it was the first thing in front of me. and I still have a LOT more mirror pieces so I'll dec-out headbands, rings, necklaces, pins, jackets, shoes... whatever is in front of me I'll Dec it OUT!! lol

DIY: Mirror Sunglasses
• Recycled mirror pieces (broken!)
• Sunglasses that you hardly wear. (make them pretty :3 )
• Glue gun (careful! its hot and sticky!!)
...CAUTION: broken pieces can cut you! So my advise grab an adults help or if your of age un-sharpen the edges so they wont poke you when you wear them.

Have fun and remember RECYCLE EVERYTHING!
cause you never know what you can make.
Next Project Item: Cardboard.

Amazing.

Do you believe at love at first sight?...you know that cliche saying.
Well, I do. It takes the same type of person to like the other. Don't you think?
haa~ Chanell doesn't doubt that i'll be like that (you must see his work!)
its funny, at this age I'm already like that. You know swaying your arms to classical music while being in complete solitude.
mmhm. I wouldn't doubt if I'm in my 70's and I'm overly "weird", "bizarre"..you name it. Kang Young-ho is practically my love at the moment, I truly recommend.

Untittled.

How can something be "Untittled", when it has a tittle ;p
Get my drift?....Let's just leave it at Nonsense.
Now there's a key stopper! ha~~ this is what no sleep and bored looks like.

Rest in Peace.

Its still a hit for me to find out that Daul Kim had passed away.
After just checking my message board my friend Ara tells me that Daul Kim committed suicide, with a huge gasp I rushed to her blog and seen what many had said.....Going down to her older posts this single line hit me: "im going to be a good wife !!!!!!!!!!!!".
With the sad and semi-angry face I have I'll leave with the single saying, "WHHHHYYYYY!!!!!!".

May you rest in peace Daul, you will be dearly missed ;(